When Im Stuck At Home.

Cheap

Sometimes I think we Chinese people are quite cheap.

Let me explain myself for the statement above. It is not an insult, no, for being “cheap” is actually being quite smart but on the other hand, the results are quite unexpected.

But yes I think we Chinese people are quite cheap sometimes during some circumstances. At least, my Dad is quite cheap.

Early in the morning our whole family have to wake up early to start off the day, to go to work or go to school. Usually I can wake up the moment my alarm rings, but as I get older it seems much harder for me to wake up. So nowadays I just turn off the alarm unconsciously and sleep on. Today is no different: first I switched off the alarm during 6.10 am, then 6.12 am, then 6.14 am, and so on.

So I ended up waking up late. As usual.

Rushing to the washroom quickly, I decided to wash my hands with liquid soap, and so I pressed the head of the soap container to get some soap. But nothing came out.

So I pressed again.

And again.

And again…..

“DAD! There’s no more liquid soap, need to refill the container!”

Dad, on the other hand, replied me: “no we don’t have liquid soap anymore. Give me the container, I will make some.”

Oh okay…..wait what? How can you make liquid soap now? Completely clueless, I just stood there while Dad took the container quickly like an enlightened man, and opened the container. I stood there with my mouth open while my Dad fills the container with water. I was completely speechless.

After sounds of running water, he turned off the tap, closed the container and handed it to me swiftly, like as if he had done this many times before.

“Here you go, I made some more soap, now speed up or you will be late!” and with that he rushed out the washroom.

I stood there holding the container, staring at it, absorbing what I saw.

“How is this ‘making soap’? You. Are. So. Cheap. Dad.”

It is quite cheap that my Dad “made” soap but if you think about it, it is actually quite “smart” in many ways!

Such a cheap way to start the day.

Some funny thoughts

I find it funny how I always think a lot. Yes everyone thinks everyday, such as how to solve a particular academic or social problem, or about how to lie to a teacher or a friend about something. On the other hand, my thoughts are not particularly constructive (and I must say they are even less constructive compared to a lie, that’s quite funny). It is also quite ironic how this short post is a product of many different thoughts throughout the day.

These thoughts are sometimes funny and sometimes weird, it can lighten up the mood. Sometimes I start thinking about some ridiculous and unhappy things it can change my entire mood of the day, and today…can be an example of that.

Why do I do that? Why do I have such random thoughts? Perhaps many others do this too, just let their minds wander off into unknown realms, let their minds fly up into the sky or dive down into the earth and think about all sorts of random things. They might even start getting real excited about these thoughts or start worrying about this and that because of these thoughts.

Thoughts. We humans think a lot don’t we?

Proof

Proof. That’s what all of us want to see, hear and want. We want the proof and this applies to everything. Funny enough this applies to interpersonal relationships as well.

We always want the love and care of others, and even when we do have it we seem to want more. It seems not enough. We want more proof that others love and care for us, just a little bit more. So some of us strive to find this proof, and dig it out. I have got to admit, I’m still one of these people.

But what more proof do we need? Why need more proof when you know you have all the love and you can possibly have? 

Such unecessary actions. Just open my heart and feel the love.

A post in a long time

We humans seems to be born with an ability to try and guess what is happening in the world or how other people think.

Guessing. We are always guessing. Guessing whether he/she like it or not, whether he/she is sad or not, whether what he/she think about themselves. Of course, it’s impossible to list out all the things that we guess, because we guess about everything.

Some of us also likes to over think and dwell upon one particular thought. That is a further step from guessing, an we just keep over thinking how that person may not like it, or how that person does not appreciate what we do, or how we do not want that person to be sad, and would only want to care and love that person. Similar to the topic of “guessing”, some of us over think about many, many things.

One more important thing is, some of us does not like uncertainties in the future. Due to that, it deepens our guesswork and over thinking mindsets, striving to come up with an answer that can satisfy us.

Unfortunately we make mistakes in doing all of this, and such mistakes will shock us. The fact is  we will never find the right answer, and we will never know if we do. By over thinking and guessing, it actually increases the uncertainty that some of us feel. Those people who does this will need to learn more about their surroundings, but most importantly, more about themselves.

So why guess and over think? No point doing it when it hurts. Most importantly it hurts others too when you tell them the thing you guessed and it is wrong. Yes we are striving for what seems to be possible answers but…wouldn’t that make life a bit harder? 

I never intended it to be that way. I am sorry. 

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I haven’t been on tumblr for a year now….

Haven’t been on tumblr for such a long time…..